Ha, so, maybe not quite as deleted. Umm. Wow, that was weird.

But hey, you know, the city is like that, right? And anyways, City Lights is one of the coolest places you'll ever see, if you ever get a chance to see it. So... much... poetry... I nearly overloaded.

That is IT. I cannot take it anymore. Fuck livejournal, fuck people who read it and then expect me to fucking psychically know that they read it, fuck people who then hold my own goddamn journal against me...

...And fuck people who can guess my fucking password in three tries, by the by.

I am officially quitting the internet, in the interest of going out and rebuilding my fucking life. Thank you and goodnight.

WHY IS MY EMAIL BROKEN?


WHY DOES THE WORLD HATE ME?


DARN IT ALL!


*breathe*


Well. Ick.

( A note about Natasha (and co.) )

Aaaugh, I have been ignoring this journal as best I could. I keep getting paranoid that they'll find me, which has to be just about the DUMBEST THING EVER but what can you do? If they find it, they'll harrass me just like they've been doing in real life this whole time. Thank goodness school is over, so it's so much easier to avoid them.

Sorry to everyone who has NO IDEA what this is about. But I think I'm going to keep it that way, at least until Andi and Jess go away to corrupt Girl Scouts at Girl Scout Camp (and can you believe they let those bitches be camp counselors? What kind of role models will they make?!) and safely away from internet access. Can't do much about Erin, Nate (bless his soul), or Adam, but whatever. I'll deal. Thank god Natasha's finally behind bars, though. That girl was a menace to society, I swear. I'll show you the scars sometime if you don't believe me.

Jess, Andi, and Erin cornered me today at lunch. I never spoke a word to them, and I managed to get away... I thought they were actually going to hurt me. I can't deal with this. I miss them so much, and they're scaring me...

But I did get the phone number of this nice girl in math, Morgan. She's really quiet and really smart, and she said we could study for the final (on Thursday omg) together.

I can't wait for school to be over so I don't have to see them every day. Then I'll only have to deal with Nate, because he lives a block away, and Erin, because she's going to work at the bookstore, too. (We arranged that before this whole mess, and I need the money too much to turn it down over this...) It'll be an interesting summer.


But in the meantime, I think I'll go shag Hermione roleplay.

I made a layout! And it has Allen Ginsberg's face and words all over it! Which is so awesome! See icon! And it's all matchy!

Omg. Am way too into this. I am also contemplating making a FO banner with that picture of Ginsberg, Kerouac, and Cassady all chilling, because omgwouldn'tthatbeawesome?

Haha, spacebar.


But. Um. Anyways.

I saw Nate today, and he gave me this look, like... like "How could you?" And I nearly cried. I miss him so much. But I know I did the right thing. I just wish it didn't hurt so much.

I hate this.

...Yeah, I need new friends. Just a month ago, my friends (in real life and on lj) got me into some stuff that was slightly sub-legal, and I didn't reallyt stnad up to them or have the courage to back out until it was WAY too late. And now none of them are speaking to me, and I don't really want to speak to them. But it's really lonely, suddenly having lost nearly everyone that was important to me (I've known these people since fourth grade and earlier), so I really, REALLY need to meet new people.


And I just realised that I am typing this at ONE IN THE MORNING so that's all for now.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH new journal.

>.>

<.<

Yeah. I needed a fresh start. Um. And now I need fresh friends.


GOD I AM LAME. PLEASE STRIKE ME DOWN NOW, AND SPARE HUMANITY MY LAMENESS. Or possibly I'll just go find new friends. You know, the kind who don't get me arrested for hanging out with them.


And now I need a layout.

...God.


I am SO. LAME.